There are a few reasons this question pricked at my heart but, for now, I am going to focus on the reason why Ethan would ask me. After his question, Ethan continued with, "I just want another baby because Cannon is not a perfect baby." You can imagine how I felt, hearing these words, and I know Ethan could read my emotions on my face. He quickly added, "I love Cannon so much, but he has that tube and he can't do things that other babies can."
I realized what he was saying and feeling. He was asking why his little brother can't be tossed in the air, why he can't sit up and bang on toys, why can't he walk around making messes, or why is he not able to roll a ball back and forth with him. I know the love that Ethan, and Ella, have for Cannon so I do not judge Ethan for saying these things. He genuinely just wants to have another baby (ALSO, not instead of) that can do what "perfect" babies can. My heart wanted to break, and I know it did a little, but I quickly realized what a moment I had here to teach my son about our temporal bodies and give him a new perspective on the blessing of eternal life.
I talked to Ethan about how amazingly strong Cannon was before we came to earth. His spirit was more perfect than Ethan's, or mine, or even Daddy's! I told him that Cannon was strong enough to experience these hard things with his physical body, things that we probably couldn't handle like Cannon could. I told him that Cannon is an example to us of being strong in spirit and that he is so close to Heavenly Father and we can learn from Cannon and try to be spiritually strong to go through hard things in this life. I told him that in heaven Cannon won't have physical problems that make his body not perfect. I told Ethan that Cannon's spirit is already perfect.
I was comforted when I saw the awe in Ethan's eyes as I told him these things. He was so impressed that his little baby brother had a stronger spirit than he did. He said, in a way that only an 8 year-old- boy who is playing basketball while getting a deep life lesson taught to him, could, "Wow! Cannon is really cool!"
I am so happy for this moment that I get to teach my children, while reminding myself how "cool" things are and Cannon is one amazingly perfect little man!
10 comments:
tears rolling down my face right now! what a great moment and one Ethan nor you will ever forget! amazing how a little boy who can't even talk can teach us so much! thank you for sharing this moment.
Natalie that is a beautiful experience. You were blessed and in tune with the spirit as you meet that challenge. Cannon is a strong and valiant son. He came to a family taught and prepared for these earthly trials. You are a valiant daughter of Heavenly Father as you quietly and humbly travel this road that no one else could do. I love you as only a mother knows.
Tears!!! Much love Natalie!! That picture is precious!!
Hi, I'm visiting from Danae's blog. I pray for the best for you and your family. It can be very difficult reconciling myself to the Lord's will sometimes...especially when it has to do with one of my kids. May God grant you further courage to be a strong advocate for your family and a strong faith in his miracles. Because there will be many. And the best ones will occur within yourself.
I loved how you told Ethan so many gospel principles i response to such a difficult question. You are such a good mother and your family is drawing strength from you and Kent. You are such sweet, caring, loving parents. Our prayers are with you.
You were so inspired- what a beautiful post. It was fun to "chat" for a few minutes the other day! I hope all is going well - - you are amazing to be taking care of not only Cannon, but Kent! So much going on for you. I am glad everything went well with Kent's surgery. I am praying and fasting for you and your beautiful family. Miss you!
No wonder these 2 special boys were sent to your home . . .
This was a beautiful post Nattie. I love you and how your strength builds me up every day. Cannon may not be perfect in his physical form but he IS perfect. It is amazing how much Heavenly Father loves all of his children and it is REALLY amazing how one little question can make us realize how perfect the plan of salvation is. Thank you for your amazing words. I love you!
YOU are an incredible mother and Kent, Ethan, Ella, and Cannon are all so lucky and blessed to have you as the pillar of their lives. Love you girl!
You are such an example to us ALL!!
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